Compromise

I don't think, word of the day is always going to be humorous anymore, after all, I'm just not a comedian and plus, some days, not even I feel like laughing. I will say this much, after being in an argument with my significant other, I learned something about myself. And what's ironic is people have been telling me this for years but I just never listen. Sometimes, who is wrong or right doesn't matter as much as figuring out how to resolve the issue. Compromise though, is never easy to come by as I don't want to feel like I am the reason something is wrong. The problem I have is I always like to prove I am right when I feel I am right. Now whether or not I am is debatable and whether or not I need to prove to any one else I am probably isn't necessary either. Time and time again though, I find myself, feeling that guilt soak in after I just pressed an issue, and I cannot help but feel bad. At times, I bury that emotion of guilt, and just stick to my guns, and other times I apologize and try and make amends. What's horrible is, tomorrow, I might just make this mistake again, because, I have found that is how I tick. I make a decision only long enough to feel better and then I slowly slip back to my old habits. I am truly a horrible person sometimes. Hopefully though, this is just life and the development of my character. Otherwise, maybe I am the only person like this, and you are all shaking your heads in disgust. Tomorrow is a new day though, and hopefully, I stick to being this new person I am trying to develop. Not really new, but just evolved and somehow bettered if that is possible. Maybe today is a look in the mirror type day. There is a world of discovery inside, I think, when we examine ourselves. I keep hoping one of these days, I will be like Columbus and find that New World inside of me that allows me to just live life and be more accepting and less worried. I'll let you know when I find it. Hell, have you found yours?